DADDY

A message to all dad's from their lil girls...

I'm sorry for ignoring all your advice when I was a little girl
I'm sorry for screaming at you and not realising that u scolded me to protect me from this world
I'm sorry I said I hated you in the heat of the moment
But now I see you were saving me from life's torment 

I'm sorry for disregarding your words of wisdom
And thinking my 10year lifespan was enough to make you look dumb
I'm sorry I remind you of mum 

So much that every time you look into my eyes your face goes numb
I'm sorry I went out with other guy
Because now he turned daddy's little angel into a lie

I'm sorry you had to see me OD and fainted
If it were me I would have stated
We are not related

I'm sorry the encompass of our lives is so broken
That we are lost and forever forsaken
I'm sorry I engrossed myself in worldly affairs
forgetting the fundamental teachings you hoped I would acquire
I'm sorry for being the family black sheep
The one to soil the impeccable crest we wish to keep
I'm sorry my life has been a constant disappointment
Constantly letting u down, witnessing your disheartened facial expression in resentment

Above all I'm sorry for stepping on that ledge
And propelling my irrelevant life off that cliff edge

Right now

A good friend of mine asked me last night what I was thinking right now

Seeing myself in the mirror I saw my head tilt and raised my eye brow

Assuming last night to be this present time,

Here goes my non-relevant rhyme

Confused, tired, distraught and agitated

These are my current thoughts of which appeared unexpected

Let’s investigate

Confused ,

 The term used when one describes a state of mind where one cannot relate

Tired ,

 A physical or psychological feature of human nature that defines one’s mental state

Distraught,

 Either an emotional reaction to an observed scene which shook the inner most parts of the person

Or

The crazed mental condition of ones’ mind that appears to have to explanatory reason

Agitated ,

When an external cause has upshot a negative reaction

From a relatively stable situation

These were thoughts of a night ago 

Let us hope they were just there for show

   

I AM BLACK

I AM BLACK

NOT ONLY AS A COLOUR

BUT AS A RACE

I COME IN DIFFERENT SHADES

JET BLACK, MAHOGONY, CARAMEL, GALAXY AND EVEN TOFFEE BROWN

MY COLOUR IS NOT ALIEN

NOR DOES IT LOWER MY STATUE AS A HUMAN BEING

I EAT THE SAME MOUTH-WATERING AND SUCCULENT MEALS AS YOU

THE SAME RED BLOOD COURSES THROUGH OUR VEINS

I AM BLACK

THIS IS NEITHER A TITLE NOR A PROCLAMATION

THIS IS A FACT

A FACT WITH A STORY

A STORY THAT HAS BEEN CIRCULATING THROUGH THE UNDERBELLY OF HISTORY

BURSTING TO REVEAL ITSELF AND ALL ITS SECRETS

WHERE SHOULD WE START

WE ARE NOT JUST A COLOUR

WE ARE A PEOPLE

WE ARE A UNITED FRONT

BUT INDIVIDUALLY WE STAND FIRM AS AN OAK TREE

NOT PHAZED BY THE MAYHEM AND CONSTANT BOMBARDMENT THIS WORLD HAS TO OFFER

ALL THESE YEARS OF SLAVERY AND OPPRESSION HAS NOT TARNISHED OUR FLAWLESS LOVE AND DEVOTION TOWARDS OUR SKIN COLOUR

DAY BY DAY WE STRUGGLED

BUT OUR FAITH IN GOD NEVER FAILED

THE GREAT LEGENDS THAT BECAME MARTYRS

THEIR NAMES DEEPLY IMPLANTED IN OUR HISTORY

LIKES OF MALCOLM X, MLK JNR, JESSE OWENS, MARCUS GARVEY AND THE LIST IS EVER GROWING

THEY SMASHED THE CHAINS THAT WERE HOLDING US BACK

AND OPEN THE PATHWAY FOR OUR NEXT GENERATION TO PROSPER

YES I AM BLACK

OR SHOULD I SAY …

YES WE ARE BLACK

BUT BLACK DOES NOT STAND ALONE

JUST AS BLACK IS CONJURED UP BY A MIXTURE OF DIFFERENT COLOURS

SO IS THE PLANET WE CALL EARTH

WHICH FROM SPACE

RESEMBLES AN ARTIST’S PAINT PALLET

A COMBINATION OF VARIOUS COLOURS

WITH ALL THEIR MOLECULES JOINING TOGETHER

TO FORM THE MAGNIFICENT SPECTACLE WE LIVE IN

SO INDEED WE ARE BLACK

AND OUR HISTORY TELLS A STORY

BUT IT DOES NOT DEFINE US

JUST AS WTHIN THE COLOUR SPECTRUM NO COLOUR STANDS ALONE

NEITHER SHALL THESE BEINGS BASKED IN THIS BEAUTIFULL BLACK SKIN BE LONELY ISLANDS

 WE MUST THEN EMBRACE THE FLURRY OF COLOURS THAT WE ARE BLESSED WITH

FOR IT IS THIS INTRICATE FUSION THAT CREATED SUCH NATURAL BEAUTY

OF THE NATIONS PROUD COLOURS

AS A MIRAGE OF A GLISTENING RAINBOW

BUT

 TAKE HEED OF ONE CRUCIAL FACT  

WE

WILL ALWAYS BE PROUD TO PROCLAIM

TO THE HEAVENS

AND TO ALL

THAT

WE ARE BLACK!

SHE = ME

I know a woman
She is the strongest person in the world
She stands head above everyone I know
She is my guardian angel 

My rock I lean on
And my knight and shinning armour
When times where tough she would smoothen the rough edges
She would put me right when I stray off the track
She has been my rock….
So it is time for me to be her anchor
She puts on a masquerade of happiness
But her false expressions of joy are transparent in my eyes
In my eyes she is a dormant volcano
Desperately stacking up her feelings in her impenetrable safe
But I feel her anguish as clear as Siamese twins feel each other’s pain
My strength grows as she heals
And dwindles as she aches
Her tears flow out of my eyes
Her blood through my veins
Her breathe is my breathe
I will carry her burden willingly
Take it upon myself to ensure her safety
Till the day she dwells in true tranquillity
Her angelic smile resurrected like the majestic phoenix from the ashes
Her soul basking in heavenly warmth
Worthy of True peace and happiness
A gift I happily trade my existence for
For she gave me life
Warmth… Family…Peace…Hope and Love
I am a reincarnation of her

She is me 

She is my MOTHER

CLAIM TO FAME

When you cant TAME the heart that wants to CLAIM the FAME you realise that would give NAME to the life you AIM to PROCLAIM

Your mastered art will enable you to live a life where your rightful wish is not to be another PLAIN being.

Leaving a mark on the very world you will one day live behind, you become a living legend

Somewhat a symbol of accomplishment and success

A makeshift Clark Kent aspiring to be the Man of Steel himself making an impact in the lives of those who look up to them.

Now we in the 21st century, fame a GAME played by millions, wanting it for the power money and glory that accompanies.

When being who you are isn’t enough, but we must nowcamouflage our true selves in this fake appearance

One that is accepted and wildly jeered by its adoring fans

The same adoring fans who conveniently “forgot” to show their allegiance when your name was nothing but a group of letters tied together to form an unidentified name 

‘Allegiance’, ‘Loyalty’ these are nothing but boomerangs

Just propelled from one end to another, used as a children figurine

You stare at yourself; a figure glaring straight back wields a familiar aura

Alas this aura is modified, changed to fit the world’s expectations

You are unable to recognise yourself…a mere reflection of ones’ former glory

 Feelings of desperation and loneliness creep in

You want out!

OUT ... OUT … OUT … is your only desire

But your own claim to fame soon plots your demise

Its over… OVER…OVER…

You are trapped, trapped in this world-absorbed fame

Nothing genuine, nothing real

In a blink of an eye it collapses

All the Jenga pieces comes tumbling down

Your empire…Your sanctuary…all gone…

C’EST FINI

Dear Brain

Remember the hardships of our time together?
Remember how we fought the wretched weather?
we've always thanked whoever lent a helping hand
whether it was God or man


Whenever we didn't appreciate 
The aid that we were given
Our conscience would writhe and ache
for that wrong that we were doing 


Lest you cause a loving man 
To become ignorant of others' pain
And more from the road he's on 
Onto a selfish lane


Make sure to love and hug
The ones held dear to your heart 
And show the love of God 
Placed in you at the start


By Chilz (upcoming writer)

TEARS OF THE EARTH

In a car with family under the rain

But in truth their warm embrace fails to cover the pain

The tears of this world reflect my inner being

Of heartache and sorrow that reigns supreme

 

Why, 理由を, Pourquoi, Porque are the questions that saturate my mind

        

The words of my emotions eager to break free from their incarceration

Bringing to surface all that was locked up beneath this false self-illustration

Of all the heartbreaks, disappointments and betrayals so common in this human race

 

Sitting in this car waiting…

For someone or something to free me from this prison

Out of the blue the words of the Bishop echoed through my soul

A distinctive sensation gripped hold

Questioning the very existence of which I had yet to behold

What is this feeling?

Erupting through this skeleton interior of mine

  As though new life has been breathed into my lungs

Is this what they call a Revelation?

The feeling of spiritual rebirth and God’s presence flowing throughout my entire anatomy

The Lord has granted freedom to this caged body

Releasing me from this self-imprisonment of my doubts, disbelief and fears

His grace has put me through a form of metamorphism

Now the tears of the earth don’t reflect my pain

But instead are the everlasting blessings of the Lord in the form of rain 

 

SELF- PITY

I am what I am because I choose to be

I am what I am because you deserted me

Left me with an empty heart of hate and misery

Unable to live life and sworn to destiny

Where is hope?

Swallowed up by this gluttonous world

   A world filled with those who only take

With no consideration for the needy and paupers who’s ache

Don’t be fooled by my assured exterior

For deep within I am weak and inferior

Self-pitying oneself to the point of no self-redemption

  Even worse than a tumour that slowly devours ones cells

This devours ones soul  

Until all that remains is the empty carcass of a lifeless being

Just awaiting for the day of liberation

The day when this gluttonous world finally feasts on this isolated shell

Then suddenly time ceases with the setting of the sun

As Self-pity engulfs another hopeless victim

SKYPE OF TRUTH

BOY:

Why do I always feel this way when I see you?

Your smile so bright it makes sunlight feel dark

I’m in awe of your eyes whenever I see them

Like I’m Alice trapped in wonderland

What can I say…?

 I made a mistake few years ago

And now I’m back to make it right

Times are a changing and that’s so true

For the my heart will always change for u

GIRL:

Giving someone butterflies is a definition of pure chemistry

And that’s what I thought we had a few years ago

The feel of your skin against mine and the sound of your voice serenaded my soul like a beautiful lullaby

You broke into my mind and created something that even today I may not be able to define but

The truth is rejection hurts as much as I loved those moments; the truth about it is that even when my mind had been engulfed with thoughts of only you, once rejection creeps in all that is lost

The mind never forgets the painful feeling of not being wanted so therefore will not allow you to enter that place, that sanctuary you once treasured

I said chemistry is mysterious, and I say that because even rejection cannot stop it from leaping back into relationships and maybe rebuilding them slowly but surely

LIFE:

These are the turmoil’s of couples in this modern era

What happened to the simple

I LOVE YOU

That simplicity has been contaminated by this ever going battle for power

This Battle Royale by the sexes caused LOVE to lose its virtue

I’ve seen humanity do this to itself for centuries

Witnessed some of the best love stories and worse tragedies

If only humanity would learn from their mistake

And the sexes realise that when love is at stake

Power is not the objective

It’s the opportunity to spend the rest of your life with the person who makes you heart beat at a million beats a second

The one who makes you forget of all life’s problems

Forget about pride

Put it aside

And grasp the chance with both hands

LOVE is not a chore

It’s not a job

It’s a choice

So TAKE IT

And EMBRACE IT

LOVE…. 

GRATITUDE

He was born into a life of poverty

Missing his runaway father and left with no integrity

Single parent mother who loved him unconditionally

But the harsh reality of life bore him misery

Which equals a life focussed on monetary gains

Sugar-coating the crater of past memory pains

His youth was filled with prosperity, hope and affection for others

 Soon friendships were established as joyful feelings blossomed

Emotions that were once locked, sealed in a front of pillars

Were resurrected from within, as he prospered

In his adult life, he neglected the finer things

Words such as friendship and family were now falsely defined

He became obsessed with worldly possessions

Thus inevitably, he would lonely face this world’s terror and crime

He would cry for help… but no one would answer

For he was so engulfed by the darkness that no light could enter

Right eye followed left eyes’ awakening

The golden gates of Heaven shone so bright and blinding

“I am in Heaven” he whispered as he felt the warm embrace of God’s Love

“Indeed” roared Gabriel

 “And welcome to the Heavenly Father’s family above”

“Your life was wealthy, yet you were poor”

“Your life was filled with possessions, yet you were empty to the core”

“Love for family, friends and most importantly God was non-existent”

“Your existence will be forgotten and become irrelevant”

He cried “My eyes are opened and I can now see”

“Embraced in God’s grace I now know His Love for me”

“Permit me a second chance to do what is right”

“And find favour in all that I have wronged sight”

“Father, have mercy on me for I now repent”

“For all the years I chose to listen to the lies of the serpent”

His eyes opened and he took a deep second first breath

He was granted a second birth but spiritual rebirth

Surrounding his coffin were the same people he neglected

Heavy precipitation poured from his eyes as they reflected

The sheer magnitude of reinvigorated gratitude and appreciation he had for life

He didn’t know what he had

He lost sight of God

He had to lose it all to gain it all

Appreciate the little in your life

For God uses small hinges to open big doors!

AMEN

Thank You

Thank you for this precious gift of Life

The blessings that this life brings into whosoever it touches

The caring and compassionate heart that rivals a deer’s mother’s love towards her new born fawn

That she is willing to give up her own life to save her biological clone

That smile of yours lightens up the whole room

It eliminates the sorrow feeling of doom and gloom

Thank you for being honest with me 24/7

A true friend

In my eyes an angel sent from heaven

To watch over me and put my past life to an end

And embark on a new journey

Or should I say an old journey put on hold as I was not ready

Your voice like a heavenly instrument

That when played soothes the soul and destroys all resentment

A boyhood wish to harmonise

With such a voice that brings tears to ones’ eyes

And give glory with all our hearts and might  

To the Lord Almighty who sent this angel as a beacon of light

 And blessed me with this precious gift of life

Special Happiness

Meeting you was an experience in itself

As you lay in that bed so peaceful and calm

Your whole existence so still with no sense of life

Your laugh and your smile as pure as a child

So honest so loving it calms the beast wild

The look in your eyes as it shines so fierce

Like a young lion cub with the innocence of illusion

But the king of jungle lay dormant in waiting

Of course there’s your beauty in all it splendour

But never forget the thorns of a rose splinter  

What kind of friend is She?

What kind of friend is NANAYAA AGYEMAN?

I wish I could say my 1st meeting with She was a memorable experience

But in this case I have the dwindling memory of an old man’s desperate attempt to reminisce   

However the memory of the cook-out is just as special the start of relationship as ever

But who would have imagined two from opposite ends would click as naturally as two fingers swiftly pressing against each other

She is a one in a lifetime type of person

Who doesn’t just stay for a Season

But remains by your side through all the hi’s and bye’s

And becomes as close as a sister

No need for blood ties

I do not need biological DNA to constitute a family member

When my heart has already accepted you as the big sister I never had but always wanted

She is someone I can converse with for hours on end

Discussing about random subjects with no relevance

But also my personal shrink to keep my ever volatile emotions from erupting like a volcanic substance

She’s someone filled with insane craziness

Who has transformed my life into non-stop mad fun and randomness

So I throw out the question once again

What kind of friend is She?

Indeed She is the kind, loving, sensitive, caring, very interesting and vibrant and many more complimentary adjectives 

But

 Without any doubt in this entire world and universe is that

Nanayaa is my BEST FRIEND