IT HURTS

Pain, pain
All of it is pain
I'm not good enough,
I can't do it
So what's the point in me even trying ??
Ever had it when you put in so much effort
And yet
You come out with complete nothingness as a reward
After you have spilt your blood, sweat and every other spectacle of energy into something
Just to have it brushed aside
Like your effort is credited as much as the next guy who didn't even do not do a thing
Do you know how that feels?
Let me tell you how it feels
It hurts.... A lot
And I dont have it in me to carry on much longer
My efforts are worthless
My voice falls on deaf ears
Oh this hurts sooo bad
My mind is troubled to the extent that I Cannot sleep
I cant eat because Swallowing hurts
My emotional pain is becoming more and  more physical day by day tormenting my every thought with negativity and self hateMy eyes flood uncontrollably as I am being bullied  by my very own  mind Before I asked myself why
But now I know I have to accept my new reality This is me
My fate
My dreams were a mere over eager reflections of a naïve young man
I'm wasting my time here .... It's time to move on
Off I go
Where to?
No idea
Maybe I'll find a place where I can live in peace with the failure that is me
Oh Lord it hurts !!
It hurts

by Toyin Said and echoshimix